I’ve probably had a couple of dozen kids to my house tonight, trick-or-treating. I’ve seen werewolves, pirates, several princesses, a bunny, a few superheros, and the cast of Grease (the Pink Ladies were great!). It has made me think how great it is that today’s kids can really jump into the spirit of the character and not just put on a mask, like we did when were kids. I think we got to choose colored eye masks … but then again, it was Minnesota and so winter coats were required. That’s a sure-fire way to defeat a costume. Anyway, today’s kids don’t just put on a mask. They do their research and put on an entire alter ego, with makeup, hair, and attitude. Even the “IRS auditors” had a line about enjoying my tax dollars at work!! Maybe they will be better prepared dreamers than I was. I still am not sure who I want to be when I grow up. That’s what this solowing/sabbatical is about…discovering the answer to that and being comfortable with whatever it turns out to be. Happy Halloween!
This blog is going to be about me and the transformation I am undergoing due to the grief I experienced since my husband Kevin died last year. Naturally, I have had to do things I didn’t use to do, like take out the trash. I’ve also had to do more of the chores we used to share, such as feeding the dogs or cooking or washing dishes. And I have done less of some things I used to do, like ride my motorcycle because it’s just not as fun any longer. Oh, and I’ve done some things again I hadn’t done in a long time, like coloring. But I have yet to get acquainted with this woman I am becoming, the one who wants to learn to play piano and practice yoga, for example. Now that I’m flying solo, I need to understand who I am, choose who I am becoming, think about what I want to do and where I want to go. He gave me one of the greatest of gifts – that of a new life to be designed by me now – and so as a result, I am giving myself the gift of a year – a personal, unpaid sabbatical – to just be, and to think about these big life questions. I resigned my permanent, paid position and will be that solo-widow-single (solowing) person starting at 5:01 pm on Friday, November 20.